This is

An end

But this is not

The end

- L.E Bowman

You can't

Is not a prediction

It is

A challenge

- L.E Bowman

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it was Us
there was I
And There Was You
entities too big to fuse into THIS world
but we had our own
Always with each other
never to be real

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The bully that cares is Resilience
one's own kindness to move on when it hurts most
in the yard of despair that needs a king
both a fighter
and a saviour
pushed from internal intentions unknown to the victim
survival until the force
the bounce
and the probability that the world will be a playground again

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You're a beautiful mind of maps
when my heart is gravitational pull

with my utopian sense of North
your compass swirls off track

So we get off at the next stop.

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my fingers in your hair
your arm heavy on my stomach
reached to hold the other side of me
my leg latched on yours
as we float higher than the net above
your soft lips against my heart
and I feel as fragile as your small lashes
that may not keep this dream safe
at that moment you wake
pulling me closer as I squeeze back
compelled by passion seconds away
but in those seconds I feel strength
and love and something of a lifetime

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if we crossed paths again
could you hold my gaze
without trembling restrain
speak of nowadays
and feel okay with the fated
while your eyes animated
precipitate a Cheshire smile
my feeling of infallible reconcile

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It's funny how the thing that destroyed us
will ultimately rebirth us
Like there really isn't a line or a
countdown
But rather a block of each consecutive
day making us safer from each other
As they get filled and ticked off
it happens with every cry turned laughter,
every moment we are not together but
distracted
Making it funny because we laughed on
the break up call. Already then we longed
to be that distraction for each other.

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Remembering the childlike tenacity that in
spite of balance, reached for the hand
dearest to it
How obscure it is to be an adult when the
carousel stopped turning

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Losing my fucking mind
Add a song
Send an email
Don't like an Insta
That's BASICally approving
this daily funeral of lost hearts
DO SOMETHING else that means more

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I feel all the things
how you're dealing with two break-ups
not just ours but the One before
the one I distracted you from

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We had everything but perfection
which doesn't exist
so we just had everything

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if
something
terrible should
ever happen to you
no one immediate
would let me know
they'd not think to, why

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Seen every driver that isn't you today
It's going to be like this forever isn't it?
Please get a new car I DON'T know about...

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The very worst of this 
Is that you're supposed to be my person
Supposed to, in terms of you are
Where truth is not as scary
and marked skin is shown well below
the surface
Touched and held as if it were your own

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What's in a water
You
What's in a whisky shot
You
All in my blood, racing towards my heart
in competition against a reality
I want to escape to but beat defeat from

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It's still too soon to break the silence
for a battle within me rages
Between talking to my once friend
And now gone lover
Scared that I'd softly scream for them to 
be one of the same again.

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