No one but me can know how I love, truly. No one but me can tell me how to. But everyone can feel in some way the love I give and receive in turn. How conditioned and warped is love in this perceived world, that it has become so unseen and characterized, to be deemed as heartless expectations and needs being met. Love is not desire. Love is not for hire. You don't rent it to acquire a need to be met. Later to return it, either debted, used, or to get your worth back. Love is complimentary in life, it is freeing, but it is not freely given or received in light.
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I did not expect to be shown love by my nephew, I did not have to force myself, my mind, worthy of loving him. It just was, is and will always be. It was not conditioned. It is unconditional. This love should be the love we should feel, show and know. It goes back to your basic being, your core, your presence in the very now. We are love. We were made of love, by a higher power and thus we only feel truly ourselves when we are in that moment of love, peace and the now. Not expecting, not masking, not distracted. Rather channeling your internal outward than harbouring the external inward. I believe that love is a trait we all have but it it loses its quality and quantity as we greedily consume assumptions and apprehensions for sustainability. Babies and dogs embody unconditional love to me. Not my mother, not my boyfriend. I expect too much out of "love" from them. Whereas babies and dogs, there is nothing to expect, there is nothing to pick apart and there is nothing I can't show, feel or know but love as the basis of all interactions. Perhaps it's simply because the babies and dogs cannot talk, and there is no fear of rejection, there is no doubt and there is no clouded misconceptions and judgements. It makes it a lot easier. Regardless, this is how I feel it should be for all humans. The fact that they can talk back, they can reject based on judgements and you will consequently doubt, makes it imperative that we should all channel our internal outward instead of harbour the external inward.
To do that, as neither a baby or dog ourselves, is a daily effort. It's a huge action, habit breaking and reforming, mantra repeating, responding rather than reacting, it seems impossible to rewire. Our brains are intrinsically connected to our hearts and they need to work together on this, work being the operative word. In doing so, daily effort, new pathways will be created and opened. With every new undaunted mental thought, positive reactions occur. Strengthening these new synapses to receive neurotransmitters to the receptor, weakening the old synapses, the old thoughts, doubts and reactions. The brain is a powerful tool of change if you train it. The heart, to me, is there to reinforce the training. When the brain seems too stubborn and somewhat cold and detached, the heart steps in. Love is initially actioned through the brain but it is ensuingly felt in the heart. These new mental pathways created will open the heart, breaking the impenetrable walls around it. Almost as if the neurotransmitters pass an electric current through the heart so to shock it into working again. Once working, even if only momentarily, the heart will beat that new thought into habit by facilitating the enrichment that you feel. Humans need reinforcement, affirmation and both ratification and gratification. However they don't know that it comes from their own life source, their core, their hearts ability to love, oneself and others. If you can't sustain or give reason to the new mental thought, let it rather reside in your heart. If your brain seems to be blocking any chance to the new pathway and it seems like the only conclusive direction is the old, it isn't. That thought may react through the old but with new intention, with awareness, it will have split and the other part will be automatically sent and respond to your heart. There it will instill, build and flow with amplification upon every defibulated occurrence.
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TO FEEL COMPLETELY AT EASE IN YOUR OWN SKIN, at ease with your own personality, at ease with your presence. Love will find you that way and never leave you. Love will latch on and attract more of itself by you being yourself, at ease. If you are, it will reverberate through and down to your inner being. You will feel, you will create and you will store it there. Through feeling, creating and storing you will realise who you are and how, when you have surplus, to give love to others.
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