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__________________________ maybe it's my inner steeze that makes the issue of you all up in my facebook another hook to this lyrical, bitch please. now i know you took a look and you be trippin' on the buttons, but no, we'll never be stalker friends so stop buttin' request, pest, give it a rest. it came across as a bleepin' and i thought my phone was flippin' but i take another look and there it says you be sluttin' what's the point, i wanna know, was it a mistake, what a joke. it's prettier on the other side side of you and i'm wittier truer purer. so leave, just retreat to yourself and yes you might be fuckin' but in the end he's just fuckin' you over You dont wont ever be shown what you dont wont ever got keep your bones and loans and get out of my zones before you get shot down to size, minimize ready for it, like a another picture, take the time to make me sicker, wasted on the crime that don't matter cos you ain't slicker, all the stress up in the world today and there you are a replacement leading him astray. you gonna have to stop and grow eat summin' for sho' like some respect 'cos i know you probably suckin' on his dick and thats a low so keep away from the mouse click before i call you a ... tow yourself behind my path, shit trick 'cos you ain't got nothing too posh for me to be gettin' over this issue will happen quicker than you will ever be remembered. you're not welcome, my pleasure. You dont wont ever be shown what you dont wont ever got keep your bones and loans and get out of my zones before you get shot down to size, minimize
I
had something similar to an epiphany just a few moments ago.
Up until a few moments ago I was
probably the most naive and selfish ex-girlfriend one could be.I realized that although this is hard for me,
it’s hard for you too. Whether it be less hard or much harder it doesn't matter. The fact that matters is that with my epiphany I managed to glimpse
into the other spectrum, that is you. Not only did I quite literally kick you
to the curb, I have also driven off into my very own selfish sunset. It's now sunrise and I am not there to hold your hand, I'm not
there to pick you up off the curb, dust you off and distract you from distractions.I realize, I have been all
talk, mostly argue and rather null in void in actions. This is not what either
of us need.It’s not who we are.I would know because I may have an inclining
on how your brain works similarly to mine.We're both adults here and I've been acting like a spiteful sixteen year
old trying to fit into my big girl panties that quite frankly don't fit, as well
as being the entirely wrong style.I
need to go starkers.I impart my
apology in the form of this letter because it’s the only way I feel I can be
utterly naked.
You are brave, you are
intelligent and you are benevolent.Albeit misguided at times, but those times do not define you.I was real mature to lose sight of who you
are (sarcasm). This sight was stolen from me by carelessness, lack of listening
– I mean truly listening, but most of all by my biggest flaw. Giving up.I gave up on you, I gave up on my heart and
myself.Hindsight is always 20/20 – and
although I had thought then that I'd reached my breaking point.I was wrong.I gave up too early yet again.I
love you, but I didn’t love you at your darkest and that is when you needed it
most.
You are bold, you are
magnetic and you are admirable.Your
restlessness is only a virtue and the ability to use it in a manner that
progresses you in a life of integrity and veracity is beyond admirable.
You are brave. You're brave because
you acknowledge the flaws you may have, you’re brave because every day you suit
up and you learn.You're brave because
you believe in your willpower and because you attempt 360’s behind a boat.
You are intelligent. You’re
intelligent because you welcome life with open arms and an open mind.You’re intelligent because you are curious
and opinionated, and you have a viewpoint that is unique and credited to your ability to be witty, clever and realistic.
You are benevolent.You're benevolent because you genuinely have
the biggest heart. It may even be your best quality.However it is often told to be silenced by
malicious distractions and when your heart and your head are not in sync you
seem to lose sight of yourself and those closest to you.You are
benevolent in the way you dream, not when you're asleep, but when you’re most
alive.Your dreams to do good and give
back to the world are not encasable even in your big heart.I quote myself when I say “No great
experience ever touched a life without the perseverance of humility.”I’ve seen your soul light up when you speak
of your dreams.
You are bold.You're bold because sometimes you're just
downright too boisterous for your own good…When you're up – when you've got energy, when you're happy, you are
bold.Stemming from ambition and
purpose, you have the ability to help others be bold too. Your boldness is charismatic
and rightly deserved.But being bold
does not last, not on its own anyway, your boldness turns into something of a
shadow, a darkness when you let it. I want you to know that your personality is bold, and
that is an empowering characteristic that need not help from something you put
into your body as it is always within you anyway.
You are magnetic.You’re magnetic in the sense that you have
the ability to draw people and their hearts towards you.You will never truly be alone in this world
because everyone you pass will keep you in their thoughts.It may be a moment they shared with you, it
may be a simple conversation, it may just be an uncanny Facebook stalk.You exude fun and realness at the same time,
which is quite a feat! People see this and they immediately care for you
because you do not repel, you do not hate and you do not judge. You're magnetic
when you talk and use those elaborate hand gestures while doing so, you're magnetic when you speak, speak of any topic you're particularly or wholly
passionate about.You're magnetic
because you’re passionate. Even when you're not interested in something, you're passionately not interested in it. This leads into the fact that you're admirable.
You are admirable. You're admirable
because everything you do, no matter how little or big, no matter how less or how more, you do it your way. Enlightenment and entitlement, although they may
either inspire or deprive you, you'll emerge instinctually knowing who you are.
The power you possess to be solely your own person is something that I will
never fully grasp and will forever venerate.I realize this now, and not when I gave up on you.
Reality hits and my epiphany
becomes my own. My thoughts and my emotions I do not expect you to think or
feel. For all I know, you have already forgotten and frightfully tergiversated
me, nonetheless these words written here are my attempt at an apology. I
apologize for not actionably loving you to the moon and back. That moon is an
inhospitable place that sent me sky rocketing back, propelling on my fear that
my hand will get burnt by holding yours.Yet the fire was only life. That fire brought to life by the oxygen you
inhale (all that life throws at you) and magnificently exhaled by a forever-growing
gentleman.
we used to be friends, we used to be inner circle, i don't understand, what have i become to you. take my good words turn it backwards, turn your back on me. is it absurd for me to hurt, when everything else is free?
My stillness is making waves that resonate with my subconscious. "Time will pass anyway" - make it count. Count for something greater than mundane. People seek comfort, but this is the root of idleness and content is the rewind button to aspiration.
Do the free stuff in life, and you will set yourself free.
They came along and washed my soul so easy High above myself, but I could hear them anyway The wind is taking them away so feathery To show them all the places they can reach And it's not too far for them to go and leave Me all alone is like there is no guaranty for such a dream And they bequeath me a black feather on the way And I thought: Yes, I am a dreamer and these feathery they won't stay
And I will try Try to hold you With my arms around your heart Even though love is going to kill me I will try...
and then you breathe. The deep, to your soul kind of inhalation of all the things that make YOU happy. After a while this type of breathing becomes natural again. It becomes all you need to survive in this chained world.
Ever tried to breathe life into something that is suffocated?
Your shine will dimmer, your demeanor will extinguish and eventually you will be gasping and grasping for what once was or should be. There is no oxygen in space yet the stars shine. Exasperating, you will rocket into an orbit of nothingness... only to look back on a world you long for but don't perspectively comprehend.
Space is however the answer.
To breathe on your own, shining galaxies away from others, not immolating your oxygen to those afloat and aloof around you. And so you learn, that with every stolen night looking at the stars, you learn.
You keep learning.
You learn that even if you throw your voice into the stars and maybe the echo of your words will be written for them in the clouds by sunrise. The sun may not shine and you're spent. Another night under the stars not breathing but talking to someone so far away in his space
even if you wanted to share a breath, you shan't.
I don't
wanna be your girl no more
You can't do me right So I decide that
